Eager to prove

Well, if nothing else, I feel as if I have a new secret. And I do! I wonder how long I will be able to keep it. I have a weakness for weaknesses, you see. There was a time when I would write and re-write my posts, crafting them into whatever disaster that I could not muster the strength to prevent. Though now I do not read them a second time, and it shows. When I do go back and look at them they are riddled with typos and poor sentences, half wrought thoughts, too many commas. Never enough ideas and wit. What am I to do?

I spend the hours of the day working now. I took on a new role at work and there is much to learn, much to do. It is both vivifying and tedious. I do not yet know how to present myself. That uncertainty both tickles and mortifies me. I am eager to prove my worth but currently don't possess very much of it with which to prove anything. It is all in the doing. 

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